So, its been approximately 4 months to this day since I last updated this journal. As a lot of people can tell, I have not been updating very much art. Truth be told, haven't been giving myself much time to draw because I've had a few things going on; after I changed jobs, I found that locally there were people who were interested in my art, but between feeding my addiction to The Elder Scrolls Online
after taking a few month break from it (and kinda-sorta-completely starting an Orc Guild on the NA-DC server...) I have been severely strapped for time.
On top of this, I think I'm going to break down and make my website a wordpress ordeal. I really tried hard to keep the coding all of my own doing, but I just dont have the time or desire to hand-code entire websites anymore, specially' when I havent kept up my knowledge on everything new in HTML5/XHTML. I already have an entire junk room filled with projects I'll never finish, I need to be much more careful about spending my time as good as I can and forcing myself to get down to brass tacks with what I want out of my life. I'm already into a decade-plus-some with the "I'm the working poor" shtick, and if I'm going to spent the rest of my life working two jobs and being poor I want both of them to be things I enjoy. I'm still working at Mayhem
on top of now working for the IT department at a Fortune 100 company, and my art has to find a home in the middle of those hours when I even have the mental emotional fortitude to do both. I've spent most of my life feeling pretty ashamed about my severe depression and social anxiety, but I'm slowly coming to terms with what they are and how they affect my creativity, and I'm willing to give myself a bit of a break because its not like I'm sitting on my Laurels.
As the title sort of alludes to, I am crappy addicted to too many things right now: Steven Universe has had me since the pre-release pilot over a year ago, TESO has been a fun time waster and more recently a community game where I can come out of my shell a little bit and get away from the hole that was left when I had to stop RPing in WoW for my own emotional health, finding new and interesting ways to show my art off locally and seeing what kind of avenues it can get me into... Jewelry making, working on the blue Lantern Fanzine when I have the time, working on Wedding stuff for some of my friends... These are just facets of the things i'm into. It feels sort of exciting to just accept that I like spending time doing a variety of things, even when it kills my social life. Creating things is where I am in my zone. I enjoy the creation process more than the end result, I'm finding, and I think I'm going to start marketing myself more along those lines.
Anyhow, i hope everyone is well and that you are all having a good Spring!